Phileosophie

Some don't make it easy for you, and there are phases when other matters become more pressing but ultimately people matter. Making things a little better for other people matters. Loving matters. Being loved matters. People really matter.

So it's been a remarkably good year, given the circumstances. I've been able to coast through the year unscathed by exams and the lack of a job. However, as we get closer and closer to the end as I know it, closer to unemployment and the prospect of actually leaving the only place I've considered home, I am beginning to oscillate between this 'faith' position that I have been in, and being in denial. I don't want to talk about the internship crisis. I listen politely when others talk about it and I do not get riled up with anger because at this point it is so much easier to pretend that the situation does not bother me, does not involve me. That everything is as it always has been. Did I ever think I would be in this position? No. I never once thought that as a doctor I would be without a job. That security was part of the reason I left economics and finance to join the medical ranks (of course there were so many other reasons as well). What I need now Lord, i

Taken from Idioglossia 2005 - a med magazine from UNSW.   Patient has two teenage children, but no other abnormalities. Patient has chest pain if she lies on her left side for over a year. On the second day, the knee was better, and then on the third day it disappeared.  The patient is tearful and crying constantly. She also appears to be depressed. The patient has been depressed since she began seeing me in 1993. Discharge status: Alive, but without my permission. Healthy-appearing decrepit 69-year old male, mentally alert but forgetful. The patient refused autopsy. The patient has no previous history of suicides. Patient has left white blood cells at another hospital. Patient's medical history has been remarkably insignificant with only a 40-pound weight gain in the last three days. Patient had waffles for breakfast and anorexia for lunch. Between you and me, we ought to be able to get this lady pregnant. She is numb from her toes down. While in ER, she was exami

8AM felt too early an hour to be up today so I slept in and took the day off from my PRINT term. My intern told me yesterday to enjoy the last few days pre-working life so I'm taking her advice on that. Last night was pretty fun. Bev, Mikie and I went for dinner at a Thai place after our hospital session and we stayed there till 9. I like how we're finally getting to spend more time together as a hospital group and I do wish we did this earlier on in the year but I guess we were always so busy with exams, or at least with the guilt of exams. I've had some pretty good times recently. About a weekend or two ago I headed out to Port Stevens with a group of meddies. We rented out a lovely big house with a deck for barbequeing and two massive tv screens which the boys set up for Halo games. We also went sand dunning and kayaking, which was the best part of the trip. I love being outdoors, with the right people. If I were being honest I'd say that I've never really fe

Just one of those days when I ask God why I have to go through life feeling like an outsider. When will I belong somewhere?

Original Post: How does God see me? -- Christian Blogs | Everyday Christian By Monique Davis | Posted 7:38 am on August 05, 2009 I had an amazing weekend recently and received some really good revelations about my walk with God. During the week, I usually attend a small group meeting. The meeting is made up of mostly 20-something and 30-something military wives. A few weeks ago, I was feeling particularly down about the fallout from my decision to live with my boyfriend and the subsequent decision to move out. I was feeling depressed, disobedient and upset with myself for disappointing God, my family and my own standards. While I was tearfully sharing my thoughts about the situation to the group, one of my group members reminded me that “you have to see yourself the way we see you . . . and the way God sees you.” It made me think, “How does God see me?” We all will have times in our lives when we get discouraged, depressed and upset with ourselves. We will f

There are many plans in a man's heart but the LORD's counsel will stand. Prov 19:21

Heard this on Spotify today. Really love the lyrics. This is Chris talking about the song. I wil

  I came across this nice little poem tonight. I wish I had the background image in a better resolution but I guess this is better than nothing. Anyway, I had my final medical interview today and it was quite enjoyable. Nice way to end my medical school career. These days I just read at night and prep for US boards during the day. Currently on a book called Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge.